Burdens

I may hesitate to let you close enough
To see the green in my eyes
Flinching at your touch
Though I want to feel you by my side
Wanting to be held close
Yet fearing your hands holding me
It's not you I'm afraid of though
I'm just afraid of vulnerability
In my eyes you may see fear
The closer you get to me
Because the body remembers
What I try forgetting
It's the burden that I carry
So heavy to carry alone
Some days my heart is so weak and weary
Has trouble beating on it's own
You may never understand
All of my triggers and fears
Why I feel hurt and abandoned
Even if you are near
My tears may not make sense to you
But I'll need to be held through them all
Show me I can need you
Catching me if I fall

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