Well it’s been a while since I last posted. Honestly I’ve just been afraid of writing. Would anything I write be any good? Would anyone even want to read it? What if all I can write about is the darkness in my life. Would the darkness just scare everyone away?
In the last two years since I first posted a lot has happened, a lot of changes in my life. Originally I just wanted to share about my journey back to a healthier lifestyle. Until I realized how much the abuse from my past was affecting my present. I knew I would never be able to live the life meant for me if I didn’t deal with my past.
After that things started to change quickly. A snowball effect really. I’m now living a life I never imagined. I’m a single mom in a country I wasn’t born or raised in and living on my own for the first time in my life. It’s been challenging to say the least and a real learning experience. I truly feel like I’m exactly where I’m meant to be though.
I don’t know the plan or the purpose in all that has happened yet. Sometimes I wonder if there even is one. I’ve made it this far though and have no plans on giving up. I know I can handle anything life throws my way now and I’m stronger than I’ve ever been. So until I know where all of this is supposed to lead I’m just going to go with the changes and try not to get in my own way.